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Gah, I'm all on edge and unable to focus on anything right now... *sigh* I've managed to distract myself all weekend, but now it's Sunday night and tomorrow I should hear about that internship position and... gaah. Have to not think about it. Am nervous I won't get it, and, in some ways, nervous that I will as well (because new job=kinda scary, even though I really want it!). And I really really don't want to be back at square one, job searching and sending out random prospecting letters and generally panicking that I won't find something by the new year (aka when my money will probably have run out. ^^) And if I do get this internship, I need to prove myself and do really well so I can hopefully get hired on fully at the end of it.

Anyway. No more panicking. Can't do anything about it tonight, so just need to relax... just writing this has helped a bit. I was distracting myself perfectly well up until about 15 minutes ago, working on my yuletart drawing, which is starting to take form much to my relief, but I got tired of working on it. Think I'm going to have a bath and read some more Deathly Hallows (preparing myself for the movie! Up to the wedding scene; now the neverending angst and bleakness really sets in... and the damned camping...). Then shall watch the next ep of BSG (up to 3X15! I'm getting there!) and work on my knitting. :) Yeah, I've taken up knitting... wanted to start coming to the Vancouver Creative Geeks meetups and also wanted something new to do in front of the television since I finished my Due South dolls. I'm knitting a Ravenclaw scarf, to go with my Gryffindor and Slytherin ones. Am gradually getting better, and am about 12 rows in. With a hell of a lot left to go. But it's kinda fun; I went to my first meetup today and had a good time. It's nice to be out and social while working on something like knitting, rather than at home alone in front of the TV. -_-